- Just wanna cry :(
- July 5th, 2013
Hey hope everyone is doing well.
I just wanted to vent quickly really. I've been really trying to change the way I think, particularly after going back to work after being off such a long time. The whole "i CAN and I WILL" attitude had been working up to now. I saw my old manager in work today (she now works in the shop next door) she popped in cos she heard I was back and wanted to make sure I was ok. I was busy so she's popping in tomorrow. That's a nice thing to do, and it just made me wants to cry. She's been through what I have (miscarriage) so she more than most knows what its like. None of the staff know, only management I don't want everyone knowing my business (she says posting it online). I don't know but seeing her just made me want to cry, maybe to do with that maybe to do with the fact I used to dread work (always ballsing up and I was always in trouble with her). Basically I don't know if its old anxiety about screwing up at work or whether its because I know she's been through similar horror I have. Or maybe even because everything is new all over and she's a reminder of old, or maybe all of these things.
Anyway in other news I'm hoping the scales show signs of losing in the morning, i've had an apple and a bit of pasta (handful to keep away from suspicion). Future mother in law said I looked tiny, must be a good thing! Lets hope the scales agree.